Been A While

I realize today as I sit and play Bejeweled that my blog has been ignored.  So here I am to update, more for me than anyone who reads I am usre of it.  Matthew has been home about three weeks.  I realize that he is a man now, not my little blonde boy.  I knoew this would happen to all of my children, but how strange for it to happen without you there.  His experience in the NAVY has been good and bad, but he grew up into a wonderful man!  I love him so very much!  We cooked breakfast today together, and he has become very handy in the kitchen.  Not just bachelor food, but his mates and he traded skills.  Also his musical talent has grown.  Some is the Heavey Metal type, YUCK!!! But when he plays Bob Marley or messes with his acoustic guitar there is such talent and peace.  He has even used the electric piano I bought to learn to play.  You may say to yourself, "I didn't know she played."  Well She doesn't, that is one bee in the bonnet that was squished before flight.  I was even thinking about selling it, but maybe I'll gift it to my son who does.  By the way, he plays by ear. 

James is in Argentina doing a wonderful job with the Lords work.  He had a baptism last week and and we thrilled.  He has seem many times the Lords hand in his mission so far.  His letters are him and yet there is a strength there that is amazing!  His spirit is so missed within the walls of this home, but I am happy to share it with those in South America.  He says his clothes are like tents and no one taylors in Chileanos, I think that is the town he's in.  We miss him daily but yet he is here.  It's hard to explain.  He was very insistant to take pictures when Matthew got home so here is a fammily photo, minus him of course.  So I can't or rather won't change the main photo until we are all together again. But here is what we sent him.

Great and scary news . . . .

I have signed up for a BA in Business at Stevens Henager College.  I an very anxius about the whole thing!

If I have any regrets of my life it is that I never got a degree, I quit to start the family and all that goes with that.  But now after a year and half without work, I find that the desire is here so I latched on!! I start o Monday!!! Yes that's right this Monday.  In 36 short months I will be a college graduate!!  I have a great support system and I know it will only add to my current 'real world' skills.  Something that I found I needed in the last year or so.  I will be more valued. By the employer that is, not to those who love me.  As I know they love me for who I am now.  On that thought, why are we so  hard on ourselves in our younger years?  I had such a low low self esteem, and I do say deal with it still.  But not as bad most days.  Why does the worlds opinion count to us?   I have grown closer to my Father in Heaven in the past few years and I have seem a side of me I am not proud of.  And now know that no matter what those who truly love you are there regardless.  So pishaw on the world and it's opinion!!!!! 

And can I just add I have the best husband in the world?  I do I really do, I feel for those of you who don't have him.  He is my strength and rock.     Even when I am mad with him, I know he is the best ever!!