wHeW!!

Wow and another month has passed... I can't say where the time went as I know- hither and yon!  So many thoughts and feelings are rumbling in the nogin that I feel a time has come for yet another blog.  This has been so nice for me, don't know about you readers, if there are any! hehehehe But my journaling skills or desires were so low on the totem pole.  I must thank Amanda Hale from my stint at the Logan Hospital PBX for this 'new' outlet.  THANK YOU!!  well here goes the rumbling.. . tumbling . . . .
I decided to get off my meds.  I am a month 'clean' and what a month.  Anti depression pills sure work, they just numb you, so now I get to re-learn how to be human, how to adjust thinking and emotions.  It is tricky!! Oddly as I surfed the internet I ran across some infor that Benadryl happens to help dt's...SCORE! two birds one stone my allergies and dt symptoms. They are no picnic and I feel for those who are addicted to worse.  Of course I also have a brief experience with pain pill addiction.  Wow who would've thought I know?? Little 'ole me.   hahahaha  I miss my boys. Their hugs and laughter.  The talks we had.  They are grown and doing their thing. 

Matt loves AZ and is STOKED to be a pilot- new major in college and he hasn't even started! Go for it I say!  James sweet James is doing fine in Argentina.  New companion and area.  New trials and personal growth.  I am glad he has a sweet gal to give him additional support.  Josie is coming in about amonth to live with us and get some schooling.  I hope we don't drive her crazy!! Always a possibility.  Melissa is growing in a direction I haven't a clue on how to handle.  She tells me 'there is nothing wrong with her' yet her new evaluation and those who know her, know different.  How frustrating it must be to be in her skin... I am at a loss as to what direction to guide her,  She seems so unhappy and aren't we here for joy?? Where is hers? Oh well Saturday whe will be happy as Justin Bieber is playing in SLC.  And since I am the 'coolest mom around' get to go with her...contemplating ear plugs..... ;)

This Sunday  marks a huge and wonderul day, our 25th wedding anniversary!! Who in all the land would have thought that we could and DID make it this far??!!!  It seems like yesterday, yet the age of the kids tells me different.  I love my man more now than then.  Crazy how that happens.  He is truly a Saint! He is so good for me.  I am proud to be Eternally his.  Hopefully he thinks the same, I feel that he got jipt in the deal...but he assures me not.  See? A Saint. 
I am going to school faithfully, it isn't too bad. Interesting mostly and my grades are pretty good 3.88.  But I wonder if I will see a benefit to all this?? The world seems such a mess.  I hope that somehow we are pulled from the brink we seem to be steamrolling toward.  I try to do the day to day thing. But sometimes that blasted Big Picture takes over and you just kringe. 
Oh and FYI in case you don't know I am a confirmed GleeK!!!!  I love that show.
Oh and Dana, Whitney and I saw Eclipse, yes even Dana!  He says he now understands why the girls are addicted to it!  hahaha He said it was good.  I am sooooo glad it was better than the first two.  I love my roses in the front of my house.. so many colors and scents.  I miss my friends from Vegas.. some are there some have left also.  I love my primary class, but miss YW. All a time and season.  And just to end me randomness...Love Micheal Buble's voice!!!
Ha I guess no one should ever ask what I am thinking....very dangerous random and flighty.   wHeW!!

Memorial Weekend

On this weekend we met Dana's sister Cheryl half way to Boise at a camp ground by Twin Falls ID.   WOW we haven't seen her kids in a while and their kids! What a great time we had.  My kids enjoyed seeing their cousins and second cousins.  Again pictures will come soon!!  I think it is so weird to see them married and with children.  Cheryl loves the grandbabies!  And Chad with his Hanah....she turns him to mush when he holds her.  And Ruth and her Maran those big blue eyes like daddy- who is totally wrapped around her finger too!  We stayed in these great cabins and just talked!  Although funny thing, it was a bit nippy and the owners brought fire pits around AND wood.  Well every meal was planned simple.....no matches!!! So someone ran to get them.  It was funny 7 families and NO way to light a fire.  Note to self, PUT A LIGHTER IN GLOVE COMPARTMENT." hahaha The next day we went to some falls, so beautiful.  The weekend rocked!!  We kept Matt to ourselves Monday for a bbq.  And we had some great people Josie and Jo Anne in Richfield went out of their way and put flowers on Dana parents grave in Elsinore cemetary.  Ah it touched his heart and mine.  No wonder James has fallen...

JuneBugNonsense

WOW! Like a roller coaster ride this is.  (master Yoda hahaha)  My time with Matthew has come to an end as he is off on his college adventures.  As he left early the 4th I was doing fabulous!!! I was so happy for him, the Dana reached in for a hug and turnedd to me with wet eyes.... then mine came.  Darn it!  But he is so ready to abe on his own.   He arrived in Arizona on Friday the 4th.  Meet his friend from the NAVY and his family, ate and conked.  Then Bright and early checked into his apartment.  ONE of HIS VERY OWN!!! He is so excited.  Bought rugs and bathroom acessories, also now has a Gecko... but not a bed as yet.  His great friend Dan gave him a couch and chair and loveseat.  The pictures we saw it looks like a bachelors pad.  But it is what it is.  It is so nice to have him happy again.   I will get pic posted, but doing this at work wont allow me to get the pictures.  Melissa is well and doing her part at DI, not liking the work but loving the pay.  Ha sounds familiar.  Her new ' test observations' tells us  she is High function Austistic.  Makes sense.  And there are great programs here in Cache valley for her.  I just want her to be happy.  She was sad to see Matthew go.  He's her buddy.  Whitney is DONE with her HS Junior year.  That is so astounding for me... she is a Senior now and goig to be a fullfleged adult in September.   Time passes and you just don't see it until one day-WHAM!! She is a beautiful girl and much in characteristics of Matthew and Dana.  Those are not bad things, not at all. Just not typical girly.  She's my buddy. 

Now for James.  He is growing everyday.  Teaching and learning about himself.  What an experience he is on.  His letters are positive, as tehy are instructed to be.  Sometimes you read through the lines and know its been rough.  But his eternal optimisticness wins out.  I have pictures, umm same story as before.  But I WILL get them up.  He has asked a sweet firl to wait for him.  That was hard and huge for him.  He is well aware of what that means and has no desire to have her do anything she doesn't want to do.  But she IS!!  Josie is a wonderful ying to his yen.  Her spirit is strong and love of the Gospel inspires me and more him, which is the important thing.  I am getting to know her and well she's part of the family now. YAY!!

Dana and I continue to work together. I love it seeing him daily like this.  He is such a good man.  Tired of his work but after 35 years who can blame him.  He absolutely loves the peace and quiet of LOGAN.  We both do.  Old age I guess.  I am working hard in school to keep the grades up.  I'd like to graduate Suma Cum Laud.  So it takes work.  It amazes me the people who just don't get the importance of education and to be grown up.  I am sure the same was said about my generation.   Ha age again. some days I feel it, some I don't.  But my mind???? Always young!!!! Yeah BABY!!!